isaiah 26:3

It's crazy how many times you go through an experience and have been taught something, yet it doesn't seem to stick because you keep learning the same thing over and over again. And you get frustrated because you think you already learnt this. Why would you have to go through the same experience again?

But did you really learn the lesson?

At some point don't you think it would stick?

I think what I'm realizing is that honestly, I need this lesson over and over.

The lesson of Grace, you cannot do it on your own, it is not your willpower or plan, but the Lord's.

The lesson of It is not you, your gpa, your likeableness, your you-ness that makes you who you are, but the Lord.

The lesson of the Lord doesn't need me, but he may choose to use me if I let go of my pride.

No matter how many times I think I have learned this lesson...

Even if I would rather not have to go through the struggle every semester of learning it over and over...

I'd rather keep having this reminder; I need it.

I need the constant reminder that I am not here for me.